I've been thinking about balance a lot lately. Not the kind of balance where you can walk a beam; I try to avoid thoughts of coordination because I have none. (HA!) I mean the type of balance that allows one to live a well-rounded life. It is extraordinarily difficult for me to achieve. I wonder if everyone feels that way or if I just lack coordination in both the physical and mental departments of life.
So much of my difficulty with this issue stems from the fact that I am an "all-or-nothing" kind of girl with more than a touch of perfectionist thrown in. When I really can (or want to) do something then I am balls-to-the-wall determined to get it done, often to the detriment of other areas of my life. That's the "all" part. The "nothing" part comes in when I either can't do something or just can't do it to the standards that I have set for myself. If I can't get it just the way I want (Hello, perfectionism!) then I just won't do it at all. Some of those standards are pretty ridiculous, too. It makes me wonder if I don't deliberately make some tasks impossible in order to give myself an excuse to quit. And isn't that an ugly thought?
I have a few of these areas merging right now and it's making me hideously uncomfortable. My hope is that I can push past those issues and just do what I can. I need to find a way to make peace with the fact that my best effort really is good enough. That's something we tell the kids all the time! I guess I misplaced my own copy of that memo.
How about you? How do you find balance in your life? (Really, because I could use some tips.)