Not so much any more.
I don't know if it's temporary (oh, please!), a possible result of this massive move, or if it's something that is going to stick around. Maybe it's a symptom of having so many kids. I know a lot of moms juggle a houseful of kids, hold down a job, and have time to spare. I? Am not one of those moms.
Sigh.
Other than "just" raising the kids and running our household on the day-to-day, my main focus right now is weight loss. I am planning meals, making time for exercise (that bit isn't going so hot right now), cooking like crazy, and drinking so much water that I fear for our next bill. In whatever free time I have, I am still trying to get us settled into this house. It still feels like it is slow going.
Know what I'm not doing? Calling my friends and family. Mopping the floors. Getting signed up for more college courses. Writing. Reading. And I miss that stuff. Okay, I don't miss mopping the floors but I do miss having a clean(ish) house.
A lot of this smacks of having a balance issue, something that I discussed here a few months ago. As a matter of fact, it is probably mostly that. Ugh. Writing this just made me realize that it is exactly that. Still, the same issues. Now I'm going to have to go ponder that because I thought I was going a different direction with this post.
What are your thoughts on multi-tasking and balance? Are they the same thing or just closely related? Where are some areas you feel out of sync? What strategies do you use to keep your life on an even keel?
I don't know what to tell you, I am also barely able to keep the day-to-day stuff manageable lately. Nothing extra fits in, and its frustrating. But I think here I have just hit that point in the deployment where I am severely lacking motivation to do anything, but then getting annoyed that nothing gets done. Good times.
ReplyDeleteI totally understand where you are coming from. Not being happy with the way things are around you but not having the energy or interest to make the necessary changes is not a fun place to be. I think it's pretty natural to get that way, though. Deployments are rough. That's the one thing about this new duty station that doesn't thrill me. It's been awhile since we've had to deal with that. I hope you turn the corner soon and can find your motivation. :)
ReplyDeleteThis time last year I was living in a foreign country, enrolled in college full time, participating in NaNoWriMo, and managing the household and kids while Jason was TDY to San Antonio. I have no idea how I did it. I just am not in that space right now; apparently, I haven't been in that space for awhile considering that I wrote a similar post back in March! I really hope it is the move that has me so flustered.
ReplyDeleteI am a big time list writer! You are so right; it helps so much. Just, you know, apparently not at the moment. LOL!
With me its no If i quite one thing I never go back this is the reason half my life is unfinished. (Just ask Will) I start a project when I stop I lose momentum and never go back. Again the reason I have 2 unfinished cross stitch 2 scrapbooks that are 4 years behind and 1 not started a sewing machine that never gets used, and a house that is always half cleaned (one end or the other is clean but never both) :)
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